It is now December 2007 and over 2 years since starting the hormone therapy. I have had my last injection in August because it's stopped working, I have gone refractory in the medical vernacular. My PSA now at 30 is commencing a hockey stick curve on my graph and heads for the top of the page, I am at a loss at what to do. The first thing is a bone scan by the Nuclear Medicine Department, this is where they inject you with a radio isotope and you become the x-ray transmitter while they move a receiver over you and measure the radioactivity being emitted at the points where bone is being laid down by your body trying to keep pace with the cancer eating the bone away. This shows up as a bright spot on the film, oh, and they use your bladder as a contrast while your kidneys get rid of the radioactivity.
The result of all this was pleasing, to a point, after 2 years I am down from 13 lesions to 2 with 2 equivocals. The oncologist claims this as a result of the hormone therapy, I'm wondering what about the apricot kernels, did they have anything to do with it, and what about all the cottage cheese and flax seed oil Ive been scoffing. I have no way of knowing what caused what but that will change in the future.
My wife and I had spent some 4 years travelling Australia in a 4WD and a caravan. We had sold our business after 10 years of slog taking on everyone else's problems and were intending to just head out to visit our kids and grandkids on the west coast of Australia. We enjoyed the experience so much that we vowed to do it again. We were looking at caravans and decided that they were not of the quality to do what we wanted and those that were were very expensive. We decided to have a go at building one to our specifications. However I was pretty sick and although I carried out the design we decided to get someone else to build it for us. This had been going on for a couple of years and then the workshop that had been doing the building lost the employee doing the job to the government and he just couldn't be replaced. No qualified staff were available. So we took on finishing the building ourselves in the company workshop. This was to be my therapy and was at the same time I had gone refractory. Although still under the influence of the drugs and still am to some degree I was going to give it a go. However, back to the story.
By Christmas I am experiencing pain at the bone lesion site on the 5th rib under my right arm. This has always been the largest of the lesions and has maintained it's hold. I had built myself a Hulda Clark zapper which puts out a 22Khz square wave pulse. I used this over the lesion site with the intent that it will kill the cancer but I don't hold out too much hope. However, what it does do is kill the pain apparently by giving the nerves a good jangle it stops the pain from the lesion getting through. The first time I tried this using bare metal electrodes and an itsy bitsy 9volt battery I burnt myself under the armpit on one electrode. Fortunately the other electrode didn't cause the same effect as it was in my groin. This added to my discomfort somewhat and I now use a thin washing sponge soaked in brine to increase the conduction area on each electrode.
I am feeling desperate, I am no wiser as to what will stop this parasite eating my bones. A friend has emailed me with some information on Miracle Mineral Supplement or MMS. This stuff is actually a 28% solution of sodium chlorite and you mix it with a 10% solution of citric acid at a ratio of 1:5 in drops. The expected effect is to boost your immune system to help fight the cancer. I sat up till midnight on Christmas eve 2007 reading Jim Humble's story of how he discovered just what MMS would do. Fascinating, maybe this would save me, at least it was worth a try as main stream medicine could offer me nothing but a slow death.
By New years I have reached a stage where I cannot give anyone a hug, the pain is just too much. I'm thinking that it must be bad for a nice soft titty pushing into my chest to cause so much hurt. And it was. I find a supplier of MMS in Australia and order a bottle, citric acid I get from the supermarket as it's used in jam making and is readily available. I start at 2 drops and get no effect although the taste is pretty awful. I take another 2 in 4 hours and then another 2 in two hours. By now I have the trots (diarrhoea) but not too bad. Day 2: I start again and build up too 10 drops twice. By day three I'm hitting 15 drops. I still have the trots but it's easily tolerated and there is no pain or cramps. I've noticed a drop in the lesion pain when I hug my wife (or anyone else that wants a hug), However I put it down to placebo, I want this to work so badly. We work on developing the hug test as a measure of the effectiveness of the MMS.
By day 5 there is a marked difference in the pain level with the hug test I am allowing myself some indulgence with hope again, just a little mind you , we don't want to get carried away too soon. Things are improving every day and by day eight the pain when I hug is no more. Using the philosophy that if some's good more's better I increase the dose until I am taking up to 60 drops a day. The max recommended is 30. I have found that the trots decrease if I stop the cottage cheese and flax seed oil mix which I do. Come time for the PSA test and the decrease in the points increase is very heartening. As I started the MMS halfway through the test period a quick calculation puts my PSA into a net drop.
Just maybe I can beat this thing.
tbc.
Peter
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Thursday, May 7, 2009
The Early History - Sort Through the Bull.
My initial diagnosis of Advanced Prostate Cancer happened in May 2005 with a PSA (cancer marker) of 13. While adopting a wait and see approach I did a bit of research and generally stuck my head in the sand. I was thinking I can beat this although everything I was reading was saying that I wasn't going to make it beyond 5 years. I had no pain and the only symptoms that I can recognise in hindsight was referred pain around the right hip and in the past few years at times painful ejaculation. I needed a wake up call and in October 2005 I got it. My PSA had jumped to 64.
The only course of action I could take to buy me some time was chemo called hormone therapy. Modern medicine says that the cancer feeds on dihydrotestosterone so they give you drugs to knock out all the testosterone in your system. Don't ask me why they just don't knock out what causes your body to make dihydrotestosterone, even they cannot answer that question. The depletion of testosterone causes several debilitating effects. My initial reaction was quick and complete, total impotence and total loss of libido. If you have the first one then having the second is the only way to go because you no longer care. What a bitch.
The long term reaction is much more devastating. The lack of testosterone reduced me to an emotional wreck. I would be blubbering into my Wheaties at breakfast, crying over my lunch and don't look at me at tea time or I would burst into tears, and for no apparent reason. Decision making was very difficult for some of the simplest things at times and I was ok at other times. That effect has carried through to the present but to a much lesser degree, thank God, it was a terrible ordeal at times for both my wife and myself. Just let your imagination loose on the scenario of a menopausal female and an andropausal male in the same house. It was not pretty. By March '06 my PSA had dropped to 0.2 and by June '06 was at rock bottom at 0.03. It stayed at less than one until March '07. By May '07 I was back on the score board at 1.5 and by June it was 5.7. The honeymoon was about to end. In hindsight this would have been the time to get off the chemo and to hit the cancer with what I'm doing now but alas I did not have the information then that I do now.
I tried all sorts of alternate therapies with little to no success. The first was paw paw leaf and stem from the male paw paw tree (that's the one with lots of little flowers). I would cut these and cram them into a 5lt pot, cover with water and boil for a few hours covered ten uncover and reduce the water to about a third. I'd bottle this, freeze some and use about 40ml in 750ml of water and drink it at regular intervals during the day. In retrospect about every hour would be best. The active ingredient in this concoction is benzaldahyde which is very closely linked chemically to laetrile (B17). I was very aggressive in my treatments and some had some weird effects. The most severe was apricot kernels. The Doc I was going to said at the time when I told him ".. so your going to poison yourself now...". My reply was "...well you buggers are going too..". He also told me I had two years, be happy. I did appreciate that because it gave me the incentive to beat this thing that was chewing at my bones and I took it as an honest appraisal. What I'm about to describe is my history and not what I am doing now although it does include apricot kernels.
Apricot kernels have an undue reputation that they are poisonous, what a crock. Any medico who says that now immediately goes into my ignorant box because after being on 60 a day for months I was still very much alive and it doesn't kill the Hunzas around the top end of Afghanistan either and that is well referenced. However, I'm getting ahead of myself.
I managed to track down a bloke in Far North Queensland that had survived bowel cancer by using apricot kernels. He had passed on his info to many others and all that had listened and practiced what he said were still alive the others had stuck to mainstream medicine and died. By this time it was firmly fixed in my mind that if I was to survive I was going to have to do it without the assistance of "modern medicine".
Apricot kernels cannot be bought from any shop front in Australia, it's illegal, but you can get them off the Internet, they must be Australian, they are bitter and taste like marzipan, that's the stuff that does the job. American tastes for ever increasing sweetness has breed the good stuff out of their apricot kernels. Kernels imported into Australia are irradiated and will be dead and of no use, that goes for any nuts imported into Aus.
I started on my first protocol based on Dr Joanne Budwig's flax seed oil and cottage cheese I made from raw milk and incorporated into this the apricot kernels. As a consequence my days seemed to be spent just chewing. I would be eating this concoction of cottage cheese and flax seed oil and kernels about four times per day. I had read that the greatest cause of failure was not ingesting enough kernels. The literature tells you that you must not have more than 7-8 per day, that amount might be OK for someone in good health and using it to ward off cancer but as a treatment it's useless. I ended up chewing up to 60 a day. Now that's a lot of chewing and you can get pretty sick of it very quick as I did. I hung in for several months and noticed a few things about my body.
I would have dizzy spells, no not in the car or while driving. It only seemed to happen when I was out on my early morning walk and I couldn't work out why until I noted that I would look up and back over my shoulder and then get dizzy. Looking straight ahead or just looking sideways was OK but not up as well, very strange. After one particular incident where I nearly passed out I went home and took my blood pressure, Bingo - low blood pressure, 130's over low 60's, too low for a big bloke like me. Apparently When I turned my head and looked up I was in conjunction with the low BP restricting the blood supply via my carotid artery to my brain to a point of passing out.
It was about this time I had a visit from my sister (an RN) and her friend from nurse training days who just happened to be an Oncology Nurse. They were both interested in what I was doing, especially as I had no options from their side of medicine. The Oncology nurse when told of the apricot kernels mentioned that "...you don't get much benefit out of nuts..." as the stomach acid doesn't penetrate the chewed up pieces very far. This was to become a very important piece of information for me. After cogitating on it some and chewing on some kernels then spitting them out I noted just how big they were even though they felt like a paste in my mouth. I came to the conclusion I would have to reduce the size of the pieces of kernels. This I did with a small Sunbeam coffee grinder, grinding for about 20sec reduced the kernels to a powder. Was this good, sure was, however, the BP problem was getting worse. Sitting down and not doing much was fine, being active was fine, standing up quickly was a problem but easily taken care of, sleeping was another problem. I developed pain in my hips at around 1-3am and on researching found bad circulation can cause this. Putting 2+2 together I tied the BP problem with the circulation problem and to try and remedy this I found myself eating spoonfuls of curry powder with chillie in it trying to boost my metabolism at 3 am so I could get some sleep. This may seem a little strange and it was but I had to keep pushing on or die, great incentive. From blood gas tests I knew my O2 (Oxygen) levels were very low which in conjunction with the low BP was compounding my problem and according to Otto Warburg's research lack of O2 at a cellular level is the cause of cancer in the first place. I was in a quandry, damned if I do dead if I don't. (I now use half a teaspoon of rock salt before sleep - Sodium chloride akalises your blood allowing it to carry more O2, bumps your BP up bit as well - Sodium Chlorite will do the same thing but tastes like bleach, pwehh, but I take it as well - I'll go into that later)
I just kept on taking the same Flax and Safflower oil with cottage cheese and apricot kernels protocol until an incident while travelling to out daughters, about 1000km drive. I was driving and went up a steep grade in the road at speed. Right at the top of the hill I started to lose colour vision and instantly realised I was about to faint. I pulled over very smartly and turned off the ignition. Then nothing, it seemed that just the stress of what was about to happen pulled me round. This incident changed my driving habits to some degree. Thinking about it later when you increase your elevation above sea level it affects you BP. Sure enough I ended up when visiting my wife's father up in the New England area of NSW at 1000m I just couldn't function and felt very sick, very low blood pressure. As soon as I came back to sea level I was OK. It was after these incidents that I did more research on apricot kernels and found they can lower your BP. I started to think twice about continuing with the apricot kernels.
The only course of action I could take to buy me some time was chemo called hormone therapy. Modern medicine says that the cancer feeds on dihydrotestosterone so they give you drugs to knock out all the testosterone in your system. Don't ask me why they just don't knock out what causes your body to make dihydrotestosterone, even they cannot answer that question. The depletion of testosterone causes several debilitating effects. My initial reaction was quick and complete, total impotence and total loss of libido. If you have the first one then having the second is the only way to go because you no longer care. What a bitch.
The long term reaction is much more devastating. The lack of testosterone reduced me to an emotional wreck. I would be blubbering into my Wheaties at breakfast, crying over my lunch and don't look at me at tea time or I would burst into tears, and for no apparent reason. Decision making was very difficult for some of the simplest things at times and I was ok at other times. That effect has carried through to the present but to a much lesser degree, thank God, it was a terrible ordeal at times for both my wife and myself. Just let your imagination loose on the scenario of a menopausal female and an andropausal male in the same house. It was not pretty. By March '06 my PSA had dropped to 0.2 and by June '06 was at rock bottom at 0.03. It stayed at less than one until March '07. By May '07 I was back on the score board at 1.5 and by June it was 5.7. The honeymoon was about to end. In hindsight this would have been the time to get off the chemo and to hit the cancer with what I'm doing now but alas I did not have the information then that I do now.
I tried all sorts of alternate therapies with little to no success. The first was paw paw leaf and stem from the male paw paw tree (that's the one with lots of little flowers). I would cut these and cram them into a 5lt pot, cover with water and boil for a few hours covered ten uncover and reduce the water to about a third. I'd bottle this, freeze some and use about 40ml in 750ml of water and drink it at regular intervals during the day. In retrospect about every hour would be best. The active ingredient in this concoction is benzaldahyde which is very closely linked chemically to laetrile (B17). I was very aggressive in my treatments and some had some weird effects. The most severe was apricot kernels. The Doc I was going to said at the time when I told him ".. so your going to poison yourself now...". My reply was "...well you buggers are going too..". He also told me I had two years, be happy. I did appreciate that because it gave me the incentive to beat this thing that was chewing at my bones and I took it as an honest appraisal. What I'm about to describe is my history and not what I am doing now although it does include apricot kernels.
Apricot kernels have an undue reputation that they are poisonous, what a crock. Any medico who says that now immediately goes into my ignorant box because after being on 60 a day for months I was still very much alive and it doesn't kill the Hunzas around the top end of Afghanistan either and that is well referenced. However, I'm getting ahead of myself.
I managed to track down a bloke in Far North Queensland that had survived bowel cancer by using apricot kernels. He had passed on his info to many others and all that had listened and practiced what he said were still alive the others had stuck to mainstream medicine and died. By this time it was firmly fixed in my mind that if I was to survive I was going to have to do it without the assistance of "modern medicine".
Apricot kernels cannot be bought from any shop front in Australia, it's illegal, but you can get them off the Internet, they must be Australian, they are bitter and taste like marzipan, that's the stuff that does the job. American tastes for ever increasing sweetness has breed the good stuff out of their apricot kernels. Kernels imported into Australia are irradiated and will be dead and of no use, that goes for any nuts imported into Aus.
I started on my first protocol based on Dr Joanne Budwig's flax seed oil and cottage cheese I made from raw milk and incorporated into this the apricot kernels. As a consequence my days seemed to be spent just chewing. I would be eating this concoction of cottage cheese and flax seed oil and kernels about four times per day. I had read that the greatest cause of failure was not ingesting enough kernels. The literature tells you that you must not have more than 7-8 per day, that amount might be OK for someone in good health and using it to ward off cancer but as a treatment it's useless. I ended up chewing up to 60 a day. Now that's a lot of chewing and you can get pretty sick of it very quick as I did. I hung in for several months and noticed a few things about my body.
I would have dizzy spells, no not in the car or while driving. It only seemed to happen when I was out on my early morning walk and I couldn't work out why until I noted that I would look up and back over my shoulder and then get dizzy. Looking straight ahead or just looking sideways was OK but not up as well, very strange. After one particular incident where I nearly passed out I went home and took my blood pressure, Bingo - low blood pressure, 130's over low 60's, too low for a big bloke like me. Apparently When I turned my head and looked up I was in conjunction with the low BP restricting the blood supply via my carotid artery to my brain to a point of passing out.
It was about this time I had a visit from my sister (an RN) and her friend from nurse training days who just happened to be an Oncology Nurse. They were both interested in what I was doing, especially as I had no options from their side of medicine. The Oncology nurse when told of the apricot kernels mentioned that "...you don't get much benefit out of nuts..." as the stomach acid doesn't penetrate the chewed up pieces very far. This was to become a very important piece of information for me. After cogitating on it some and chewing on some kernels then spitting them out I noted just how big they were even though they felt like a paste in my mouth. I came to the conclusion I would have to reduce the size of the pieces of kernels. This I did with a small Sunbeam coffee grinder, grinding for about 20sec reduced the kernels to a powder. Was this good, sure was, however, the BP problem was getting worse. Sitting down and not doing much was fine, being active was fine, standing up quickly was a problem but easily taken care of, sleeping was another problem. I developed pain in my hips at around 1-3am and on researching found bad circulation can cause this. Putting 2+2 together I tied the BP problem with the circulation problem and to try and remedy this I found myself eating spoonfuls of curry powder with chillie in it trying to boost my metabolism at 3 am so I could get some sleep. This may seem a little strange and it was but I had to keep pushing on or die, great incentive. From blood gas tests I knew my O2 (Oxygen) levels were very low which in conjunction with the low BP was compounding my problem and according to Otto Warburg's research lack of O2 at a cellular level is the cause of cancer in the first place. I was in a quandry, damned if I do dead if I don't. (I now use half a teaspoon of rock salt before sleep - Sodium chloride akalises your blood allowing it to carry more O2, bumps your BP up bit as well - Sodium Chlorite will do the same thing but tastes like bleach, pwehh, but I take it as well - I'll go into that later)
I just kept on taking the same Flax and Safflower oil with cottage cheese and apricot kernels protocol until an incident while travelling to out daughters, about 1000km drive. I was driving and went up a steep grade in the road at speed. Right at the top of the hill I started to lose colour vision and instantly realised I was about to faint. I pulled over very smartly and turned off the ignition. Then nothing, it seemed that just the stress of what was about to happen pulled me round. This incident changed my driving habits to some degree. Thinking about it later when you increase your elevation above sea level it affects you BP. Sure enough I ended up when visiting my wife's father up in the New England area of NSW at 1000m I just couldn't function and felt very sick, very low blood pressure. As soon as I came back to sea level I was OK. It was after these incidents that I did more research on apricot kernels and found they can lower your BP. I started to think twice about continuing with the apricot kernels.
tbc
Peter
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